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Holly MathNerd's avatar

GENERAL COMMENT: I’m a lot more tolerant here than I was on Twitter, where the sheer volume of input coming at me constantly required me to block and mute liberally. But my mind is made up, and if you aren’t someone I am legit close to—someone who has been in my home and/or someone who has my explicit permission to call me out when you see the need—you do not possess the power, authority, or influence to change my mind on this one. Bear that in mind when you start commenting.

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I can relate to this. I am in a similar situation of active vs passive capitulation.

I also grew up in a dysfunctional, toxic family full of inter-generational trauma. I went through many years of therapy myself, healed my PTSD and anxiety disorder immensely, met a healthy man, married, and now am raising my children in a very different environment. I became a better, much less reactive person, and my relationships improved. Except my relationship with my abusive mother. (Father died when I was young and brother is.. not sure.. probably in jail.) My relationship with my mother got worse. Something to do with healing and rejecting my scapegoat role and setting healthy boundries. That doesn't go over well with damaged people who view realtionships as a means of control and keeping false narratives alive for psychic self-preservation, instead of loving ways of understanding oneself and others.

When my father died he left, quite unexpectely to us, a TON of money to my mother in the form of multiple life insurance policies we never knew he even had. She inherited millions, including some property in California we didn't know his grandfather had left him. Of course, she sent me a letter from her lawyer stating I was disinherited, unless I "learn to be a less hostile and more grateful daughter". I live several states away and I don't know how many people have told me to get along and go along for the money. (We're talking about 1 to 1.5 million here.) We won't even see her that often and if she calls every day who cares, right? Wrong.

I won't do it. How do I value myself and learn that I matter if I capitulate? How do I maintain healthy self esteem and not fall into unhealthy codependency and self harm again by letting her twisted narrative be reality to me.. for money? It's not about holding a grudge. I don't hate her. I forgive her for all of her hurt and abuse, but I will not have a relationship with her because forgiveness does not mean it was OK. She has not changed. She is the same toxic person. She cannot buy the love she destroyed.

However (and this is HIGHLY unlikely) if she dies and somehow the disinheritance was just a threat and the money ends up coming to me, I won't refuse it. So yeah, if the money comes somehow, OK, but I understand how hard fought respect is to someone who was never given it and allowing yourself to be bought is one of the least respectful things you can do. Cheers to you.

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