I’m glad that you have such supportive and fierce friends. It also makes me realize that sometimes a person can lend a friend verbal and supportive armor against the crap life throws at you. I think most of us want to be that friend. Glad you’re coming out of the pit.
I enjoyed the cover version of Sounds of Silence too. I’m glad to hear that you’re feeling better. I hope you can stay away from the Woods of Depression this spring and summer. Good to hear that you have a new boss, too. I look forward to reading your fiction writing.
I had been thinking and wondering about you on my drive home this morning and then I saw this post. I'm glad (relieved) you've won the friends lottery and all the support is helping you through the darkness.
I laughed when I read "Josh shares my blood type (bitch-positive), may all the gods be praised."
I've thought about you quite a bit since your previous post about being in a deep depression. I've prayed about what to say and how to say it positively rather than negatively because I draw strength from your backstory.
What you have already overcome is a story about which movies are made. What you've accomplished in your short life is inspiring to an old man like me. I've been around young people all my life and never have I seen overcome adversity as you have.
Focus on where you want to go and how you want to get there. Let your friends know how blessed you've been to win the "friends lottery."
Try to focus externally rather than internally, reminding yourself of everything now good in your life, remembering that the vast majority don't have friends who measure up to yours.
Know that many of your readers and subscribers really do care about you and what happens to you. You've had a positive influence on many of them. Allow yourself to reflect on that.
Thank you. I re-read your email once or twice a day for awhile -- I'm sorry I didn't have the wherewithal to respond in any depth. I'm feeling like drawing again (finally) -- I'll be sending you and Mrs. M a card soon!
My wife used to say that depression is anger turned inwards. Today is the second Thursday of Lent. On the second Thursday of Lent long ago she wrote this.
I appreciate the sentiment, very much. Josh is not naturally inclined to such things but has largely gotten over it for my sake, a gift I do not take even a little bit lightly.
Just know I am one of those people who wishes the very best for you in the coming days as you work your way through this. I don't know you personally, but from reading your post, I believe you have both the inner strength and the community support to emerge on the other side successfully.
I’m glad you are doing better, and I wish you a continued upward trajectory.
My wife does those Legos — she is now doing an X-Wing fighter — but they cut against my own fond Lego memories. I made quite a few Lego spaceships in my day, but they were all craft of my own design. I guess I’m just not great at following directions. (I am the same with recipes, which I modify extensively. It’s why I don’t like to bake.).
I don't like to post because I don't want to make things about me and I don't have any particularly good advice that wouldn't sound trite or lame or both, but it is good to hear you are doing better. Hopefully the trend will continue into the future with any setbacks being minor and easily overcome. You can do it, Miss Mathnerd.
Also hang a pcture of Josh by your gun area, because he would be the most affected, too.
Now you are into the rock band Disturbed? Now in really in love with you.😉
I’m glad that you have such supportive and fierce friends. It also makes me realize that sometimes a person can lend a friend verbal and supportive armor against the crap life throws at you. I think most of us want to be that friend. Glad you’re coming out of the pit.
I enjoyed the cover version of Sounds of Silence too. I’m glad to hear that you’re feeling better. I hope you can stay away from the Woods of Depression this spring and summer. Good to hear that you have a new boss, too. I look forward to reading your fiction writing.
I've heard several renditions for "Sound(s) of Silence" over the years - and Disturbed's is my favourite also. And I love the LEGO.
Best wishes and prayers.
Continuing to pray. I appreciate the updates when you're able to share.
I had been thinking and wondering about you on my drive home this morning and then I saw this post. I'm glad (relieved) you've won the friends lottery and all the support is helping you through the darkness.
I laughed when I read "Josh shares my blood type (bitch-positive), may all the gods be praised."
We could all use a Josh in our corners!
I've thought about you quite a bit since your previous post about being in a deep depression. I've prayed about what to say and how to say it positively rather than negatively because I draw strength from your backstory.
What you have already overcome is a story about which movies are made. What you've accomplished in your short life is inspiring to an old man like me. I've been around young people all my life and never have I seen overcome adversity as you have.
Focus on where you want to go and how you want to get there. Let your friends know how blessed you've been to win the "friends lottery."
Try to focus externally rather than internally, reminding yourself of everything now good in your life, remembering that the vast majority don't have friends who measure up to yours.
Know that many of your readers and subscribers really do care about you and what happens to you. You've had a positive influence on many of them. Allow yourself to reflect on that.
Thank you. I re-read your email once or twice a day for awhile -- I'm sorry I didn't have the wherewithal to respond in any depth. I'm feeling like drawing again (finally) -- I'll be sending you and Mrs. M a card soon!
My wife used to say that depression is anger turned inwards. Today is the second Thursday of Lent. On the second Thursday of Lent long ago she wrote this.
Dear God
I feel once again the heat
the red of anger
Spread across my face, my soul
What am I to do?
I have turned my cheeks
a thousand times
For as a child I found it
far easier to just be sad
But now I know how much
I suffer at their hands
So just how far should honor go?
Just how far must I?
They gave me life but does that mean
they have the right to claim it?
And what of you?
Isn't your claim the stronger?
I feel once again the heat
the red of anger
Spread across my face, my soul
O my God please guide me
To cooler days and clearer waters
and release me from their sins.
3/12/92
I wish I could give you a great big strong hug - if that's something you'd want.
I appreciate the sentiment, very much. Josh is not naturally inclined to such things but has largely gotten over it for my sake, a gift I do not take even a little bit lightly.
Is not naturally inclined to give hugs, bug strong or otherwise?
If so, I have a son like that, for whom the height of physical affection is passively allowing an occasional side hug from his parents! 😂😉
I’m so happy to know you’re doing better.
My very best wishes to you. May you find your way out of this wilderness soonest.
And the Lego is awesome.
Just know I am one of those people who wishes the very best for you in the coming days as you work your way through this. I don't know you personally, but from reading your post, I believe you have both the inner strength and the community support to emerge on the other side successfully.
I’m glad you are doing better, and I wish you a continued upward trajectory.
My wife does those Legos — she is now doing an X-Wing fighter — but they cut against my own fond Lego memories. I made quite a few Lego spaceships in my day, but they were all craft of my own design. I guess I’m just not great at following directions. (I am the same with recipes, which I modify extensively. It’s why I don’t like to bake.).
It's good to see where you are today. I've been praying for you and will continue to do so.
Please continue to reach toward the beautiful, the good, and the true. I've discovered that this makes all the difference.
Thank you, Pastor.
Those are so lovely looking Lego flowers, and I’m glad I got to see them.
I like the LEGO flowers.
I don't like to post because I don't want to make things about me and I don't have any particularly good advice that wouldn't sound trite or lame or both, but it is good to hear you are doing better. Hopefully the trend will continue into the future with any setbacks being minor and easily overcome. You can do it, Miss Mathnerd.
Thank you. :)